| Hmmm |
[Aug. 11th, 2007|11:15 pm] |
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I love watching movies, you can cuddle up in a big bean bag and be absorded into movie-land. Why is it that I'm such a hopeless romantic, and sigh at every cheesy one-liner or whatever? I am lucky enough to have the most amazing boyfriend, I don't know if he knows how much I love him. I don't know who reads this but I just wanted to put into the void of cyberspace, to get it out. I was so excited last year for it to be this year, and now that it's this year I can't seem to wait til next year!! I'm going to be living with Byron and another couple, I'm really looking forward to it but I want to be there now. I know I told Byron that I didn't want to rush anything but I miss him even before I say good-bye to him and the thought of him is always on my mind. It's hard to explain, but Byron is the kind of guy who makes me feel like he is the one I was waiting for. The kind of guy I would wonder about when I was a little girl, wondering where he was or what he was doing. Man I'm smitten, I've never felt this way about anyone before. Hmmmm |
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| Life |
[Jul. 24th, 2007|05:03 pm] |
Life is a funny thing, you live, make mistakes, learn from those mistakes and move on. There is no time or room in life to get angry and anal over little things. You can't expect to be able to have control over other people's lives either. I've found over the years that there are so many hypercritical people out there, telling you not to do something when they, themselves, have already done it. I try not to be. I have made mistakes but I've also been open-minded enough to learn from them and accept that I'm not perfect....no one is.
I think life is also too short to worry about what people think of you, the only opinion that should really matter is your own. On the same note you shouldn't try to control or let people control your life, moving out of home is a sign of growing up and a chance to spread your wings without the dictation of someone older telling you which way to turn.
I think anger is also a HUGE waste of time, why get angry? Everything can be solved with a civilised conversation and if you can't be civilised just don't bother opening your mouth...simple. Oh and I also think that people have a right to their privacy.
Ok enough of me going off on a tangent, that is what happens when I've got too much time on my hands. Anyway, Byron and I are practically busting out of our skins to get to Japan!! In exactly 5 months we'll be in Osaka!! I just hope the dollar keeps going up a little bit longer so we can get more yen. |
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| what else? |
[Jul. 12th, 2007|10:55 am] |
Japan of course!!
Byron has decided to shout us a night of luxury in the Ritz-Carlton instead of the Hilton. It looks amazing!! I'm so lucky. We can't wait to get over there, we've been working out prices and expenses etc.
Which has been made a lot easier by his parents helping us. |
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| Stuff |
[Jul. 10th, 2007|09:55 am] |
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Once again all I can talk about is Japan!! I can't help it.
Byron and I got back from Nelson last night, both very tired. His parents have been generous enough to pay for both our flights there and back, it was really nice of them to do that for us. It will definitely make things easier when we get over there. We're even thinking of spending a night in the Hilton Osaka!! We're also talking about living together next year, just the two of us (not sure if we want to live with anyone else yet) and working on a cruise ship together in 2009!!
I'm so happy and can't wait to do all these things. |
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| Japan! (AGAIN!) |
[Jul. 2nd, 2007|11:25 am] |
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Alright, so what do you do when someone offers you something REALLY generous? I couldn't accept it if I had the ability to work for it myself. But what if you couldn't stop that person doing that generous thing because they live in a different town? I've got myself into a predicament....not a bad one though. Byron's parents told him on the phone last night that they would be booking (and paying for) our flights to Japan before we get up there this weekend!! That's over $4,000!! I wouldn't know what to say if they've already done it, I would definitely feel like I owe them something special. I'm just hoping that they'll book them and let us pay for them.....hopefully. |
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| sleepy |
[Jul. 1st, 2007|12:09 am] |
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ZZzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz....... I should be in bed but I can't be bothered moving! I'm so sleepy, don't know why. Maybe it has something to do with the bourbon and coke (3/4 glasses) I had before dinner. I say this quite often but I can't wait to go to Japan with Byron, I don't know how I'll survive the next 6 months, can't wait!!!!!!!!!!
Byron (hmmmmmmm :D) is being so lovely, I'm happier than I've been in ages. We're going to have such a wicked time in Japan!!
Anyway my very advanced bed (NOT!) is calling me. |
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| Freedom |
[Jun. 22nd, 2007|11:45 pm] |
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Freedom of the superficial kind....I'm free for the next 3 weeks, no uni, no commitments, no stress. *sighs in relief* I can't wait to start relaxing and getting some stuff done that I've been wanting to do for a while. Like reading my book, working on my art and spending more time with family and friends.
I go to Nelson in 2 weeks time to book my flights to Japan. Why not do it here? Well, firstly, Byron's mum got us a cheaper deal through her travel agent and, secondly, Byron wants to go home for a couple of days.
Well here's to freedom and to finding my center....man that sounds cheesy.
But...who cares? I feel the need to grow and discover my inner intentions for life. |
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| Meh....procrastination |
[Jun. 20th, 2007|12:34 pm] |
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I have one exam, just one.....its tomorrow at 9:30am, I know what needs to be done but I can't be arsed coz I feel confident and it will hopefully be as easy as I'm expecting, but why do I feel guilty when I procrastinate?? Damn distraction that is the internet!! Plus I was made to feel nervous about my future when I was asked what I could do with my degree when I finish. This stressed me out just a tad. I know I want to teach in Japan when I'm done but after that I haven't got a clue. Maybe I'm hoping something will come up that will be perfect but what if it doesn't? I've got 3 possibly 4 years to work this out but still, trying to think of something that I'd want to do or be excited about doing for the rest of my life is kind of scary. |
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| Travel |
[Jun. 13th, 2007|08:46 am] |
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:D I can't wait till the year is over!! I'm going to Japan in December with Byron for 2 weeks!! We've been sorting out flights etc and managed to get a pretty good deal. $2015, including return flights, taxes, insurance and accomodation money for a night in Auckland. Although we may not need it seeing I have family up there but I still have to talk to Byron about that. I'm just hoping that we'll have time to do the things I want to do as well, again something I still have to talk to Byron about.
I just can't wait to get over there for an actual holiday with no commitments like school or work. To get yet another perspective on Japan, especially seeing Byron has never been before. Now I just need to win Lotto!! :) I'm saving as much as I can at the moment (about $100 a week) but I will probably have to get a job for a couple of months after I finish uni and before we go so I have enough for food and accomodation....and random stuff as well. :D |
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| Life and Love |
[Jun. 7th, 2007|01:56 pm] |
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I'm so in love!
For the past 6 months I think I've been the happiest I've ever been! Everything seems to be going right now, and I can't wait to see what happens in the next 6 months and more.
Byron asked me to move in with him the other night, seriously.
I say seriously because we've talked about it before but we haven't seriously meant it. I really want to get a place together, I can't seem to get enough of him :) Even though I want to, we're not going to till next year after we've gone to Japan.
I can't wait!! |
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[Jun. 5th, 2007|08:25 am] |
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I had such a quiet weekend. I got some study done and managed to watch about 6 DVD's. It was nice to have the place to myself and have some time to be alone and I realised that I don't mind living with my parents at the moment. I'm hoping to go flatting again next year though.
I'm really looking forward to seeing Byron tonight, he gets back from his two night tramp today. I've missed him but I hope he had a good time :)
I looked at an interesting website yesterday, www.teachinjapan.com, it's a nova website. I can't wait to finish Uni and get out there!! |
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| oww |
[May. 29th, 2007|01:55 pm] |
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Yeah still in pain! I think it's getting worse, I'm really stiff and can hardly manage lifting my arms over my head or walking down stairs!
Just goes to show how unfit I am and how much more tramping I need to do.
Unfortunately I can't go this weekend as I have to stay home and babysit our 2 cats. Not your ultimate weekend but at least I get the house to myself for a while. I am really guttered that I can't go tramping with Byron though, I was really looking to spending more time with him in his element.
Oh well...I should really get back to my history essay, oh how exciting is the world of 1893!! :P |
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| So sore!!! |
[May. 28th, 2007|09:49 am] |
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Argh, where are the strong painkillers when you need them!?!
I went on a day tramp with my boyfriend yesterday, and it was fun but boy am I sore today or what!!!
The good thing about exercise though is that I'm very awake today, usually I get pretty sleepy at uni for some reason, but not today.
It was a wicked tramp, we went up Kelly's range on the way to Carrol Hut, near Arthurs Pass. Amazing views and a challening track, at some points we were climbing up tree roots it was that steep.
Byron wants to go on an over night tramp for Queens Birthday weekend, I'm a little nervous because I don't have as much experience as he does but I'm looking forward to staying in a hut and cooking up marshmellows!! |
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| 48hrs, doesn't go as slow as you'd think |
[May. 25th, 2007|08:30 am] |
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I've never had a weekend go so fast in my life!!
The whole time I was in Japan the weekend dragged (it was the most hectic time of the week) because of all the work. But having to script, film and edit a movie in 48 hrs just isn't long enough!!
It was a wicked experience and I learnt so much as the sound operator.
We got 'based on a true story' as our genre and had the basic plan by Friday night. Saturday was a full day of filming and after some edits of the script we thought we'd be ok. Sunday we had to get a few last shots for our revised ending and record some sound for foley. Had a few setbacks there so we didn't finish till about 4:50. Now with 2 hrs and 10 minutes to go we were hopeful.
Until the computer crapped out on us while we were trying to render the film. Got it restarted and popped a dvd in to burn as we didn't have a camera compatible to allow us to put it back on to mini DV. At 6:40 the computer rejects the DVD at 80% complete and comes up with a write error!!
We jam another in the drive and with 5 minutes to spare it burns (without some of the audio clips!!). Cully (our director) and Scott (our lead actor) race down Moorhouse doing 110kms and over and get to the drop off point 1 minute too late!!! We were absolutely guttered, I was so guttered for Byron in particular who had worked so hard trying to edit it to perfection.
Even though we didn't get it in on time we will still be screened at the heats (which are tonight) and I had fun anyway.
Can't wait till next year. |
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[May. 15th, 2007|07:45 pm] |
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I finally met up with Shane yesterday, he got back from Wanganui on Monday. It was cool to see what he could do with his Japanese and I think that helping him will help me. I was talking with him for about an hr and a half, which was interesting.
Anyway, I'm feeling nostalgic today because I thankfully saved all the e-mails that my gorgeous boyfriend Byron sent me when I was in Japan. So when I had some spare time this morning I re-read them. I'm so thankful and feel so lucky to be with someone who supports me and can make me feel amazing even when we were 10,000 kms apart.
I love him!! :D |
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[May. 11th, 2007|09:16 am] |
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Yesterday I was on my way into town when I had to change buses at Riccarton.
I sit down (listening to my iPod) when the little girl sitting beside me asked me where Pioneer Stadium is. I had no idea, so I get to talking to this girl and find out that she has (apparently) been sitting there since the morning because she lost her bus money. By the time I get to her it's 2pm.
The more I talk to her the more she pulls on my heart strings, she has no bag and is only wearing shorts and a t-shirt. I asked her if she would like me to call anyone for her but she couldn't remember any numbers and she said she doesn't have a home phone.
I then asked her if she had had anything to eat and she says no.
By now we'd been sitting there for about 5-10 minutes and I'd discovered she lives in Hornby, goes to a 'Maori School' and can't get to either place because she has no money.
Ok so by now you're probably thinking I got conned, maybe.
But I couldn't have just left this little girl, who can't have been older than 8, sitting at the bus stop with no food or bus money.
So, I took her to Macca's and got her a $4.90 happy meal and gave her $5 for the bus home. If I was ripped off I don't really care because in the greater scheme of things I only spent $10 on her and if I wasn't conned then I helped a little girl get home. |
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[May. 8th, 2007|11:58 am] |
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Cats! That was the best musical I've seen in a LONG time. We had really good seats as well, about 5 rows from the front. It was a wicked show.
I know I should be studying but honestly I can't be arsed at the moment. I was procrastinating before because I was waiting for an e-mail from a guy who I'm going to try and teach Japanese. The thing is, he is in Black Power, and recently (if you've been living under a rock you wouldn't know) there was a drive-by shooting in Wanganui where the Mongrel Mob shot a 2yr baby girl of a Black Power family, so I guess he is going up to show support. Now I have a relatively free afternoon!
Ok I better do something with the rest of my day. |
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| :) |
[May. 3rd, 2007|10:43 pm] |
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I'm feeling remarkably more positive than I did yesterday, it's amazing what a good sleep and a cuddle in the morning can do for your attitude :)
I'm also stoked coz I got a B (or 68%) for an essay that I started and finished (pretty much) the night before it was due. I had done a lot of reading for it previously but didn't start actually writing it till the night before.
I'm really looking forward to the weekend, I'm going to see the musical Cats on Saturday night, with my parents and boyfriend.
*contented sigh* :D |
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| Meh |
[May. 2nd, 2007|11:42 am] |
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Well I'm not feeling completely cynical today but can you blame me when Christchurch has had rain for the past 3 days!?!?
I'm so lucky to have the family I do, last week was long and sad. It was great to have family around though. On Saturday night we had a get together and it was awesome to spend time with cousins.
Ok so why am I cynical... well why is it that when you're in a relationship you become (big generalization here) more self conscious?? and self esteem is non existent? Maybe I fall too fast?? I don't know...I've made some stupid mistakes that I'm going to have to fix and I'm hoping it won't ruin something really REALLY good...next question is how? |
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| Life and Death |
[Apr. 23rd, 2007|12:27 pm] |
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I watched my uncle take his last breaths 2 days ago. After 3 years of fighting a brain tumour that usually kills in 6 months he is finally at rest, he was only 57 years old.
Life is cruel that way, he was the least deserving person I can think of to have to endure something like that. The funeral is on Friday but I think it will take the family a long time to heal. It is SO important to spend time with family, to comfort each other and to tell each other that they are loved, life is far too short to argue over superficial things. I can't concentrate on anything at the moment, it's still too raw in my mind. I'm just grateful that most of the family were able to be with him when he passed away. |
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